LettingGo

I was homeless for a week. Been broken because of bad energy. And have been fighting to get through the past month. I fell off the grid, lost my face, and am now in the process of finding and re-inventing myself. And to top it off, I'm grieving because of losing two things - the house I grew up in and the piano that I've had since I was 5. I'm not one to care for material things, despite what I may portray. But, my connection with the two is strong like rock - still. I've been broken for six months inside, fighting everyday to be strong.  But, I've accepted and believe that life is amazing and can be quite a fight, making today okay. 

I cherish the time I spent in Pacifica and reflect every morning about my experiences there in life. And am grateful for having had such a home, filled with life, love, and warmth. 

But to be honest, I'm still shaken from losing my piano. I believe it saved my life. As a child I was bouncing off the walls and full of energy - more energy than normal. At 5, I was diagnosed with Hyper Thyroid and had to be medicated and monitored, a horrible lifestyle.  My piano saved me, literally. Playing it helped me express myself and channel energy I didn't know how to control.  I would feel frustrated because I didn't know what to do with myself and what I would feel inside -I was a firecracker that would explode.  But, playing forced me to know discipline. It encouraged me to experiment with musicality artistically and enabled me to use my hands to express and channel the energy running through my blood and body.  I learned control and was able to manifest sanity and understand peace of mind. It was music therapy....

...and now I'm without it.

I always reflect and make of lists of things to LET GO of. It's helped me grow. I made another one. I will burn it today to help me push forward. And PIANO is on the top of the list. I record myself -experiences, feelings often. I recorded the last day I played the piano. Watching it is bittersweet. 

Sometimes you just have to let go.

“Some of us think holding on makes us strong, but sometimes it is letting go.” — Herman Hesse

Bone Thugs N Harmony - LA, Day 2

Day 2 of working with Bone Thugs and The Life Entertainment was an amazing experience, pushing me to test my potential in the event/artist entertainment industry.  Last Friday night was definitely one of the most challenging events I have ever worked, feeling 10 times more intense than any SF/Bay Area event I've ever witnessed.  I was high off of the rush and am recovering from it all now. I'm addicted. And my taste of Hollywood's industry with a high profile artist was definitely DELICIOUS.

From being the face of The Life Entertainment greeting artists at the venue, to working with the million promoters who were hungry for the door, to getting Wish, Krayzie, and FleshNBone into the club, to running around Hollywood picking up Hot Wings and artists - I had my hands FULL, constantly moving, running, creating avenues for challenges. I changed my shoes three times.  I applied my dark black, purple lipstick 4 times. And immersed myself entirely in the event. I'm not 5 feet 8'. I'm small. I'm Filipino, not white and my hair's not straight - different from Asians around. I'm not from LA, and don't fit the description of the standard woman in the industry BUT I bust my ass hard, passionately and live in the moment, loving it all.

Funky Wristbands for Bone and The LIFE, the Funkier the Better.

Michelle suggests plain wristbands.

Pozition's Sound Check @Cabana Club

Gemma's Delicious Cupcakes - Marley's Treats

Our MEDIA WALL - Oh the drama we went thru to get this wall up

Krayzie Bone

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Bone Thugs N Harmony - LA, Day 1

I am blessed to extend what we started in the Bay to LA. I got the call from their management direct and have been on the grind all day. Tonight's gonna be fire.

I parked in the streets of Hollywood and my meter was busted and i got a $68 ticket. WTF?

@Krayzie Bone's Studio - They makin' MAGIC

Krayzie Bone and Flesh-N-Bone

MTV and BET

Mooooon MAN

Bone Thugs and Harmony

In 1995, the same year I made my first phone call to a boy I liked, I became a pro at recording music off the radio. I'd take a blank tape from my dad's collection, jam it in my stereo, change the channel to KMEL, and wait, listening to each song until it was time to press record.  I was anxious every time I'd sit there, staring at the stereo, hoping I'd catch the beginning of the song I wanted. And I'd get them all: Freak Like Me, Waterfalls, Gangsta's Paradise, One More Chance/Stay With Me, Shy guy, and MORE. But one of the infamous songs, was Crossroads.  I was on Bone Thugs like white on rice, in a trance from their chants and swag.  CMC was on after school everyday and I'd wait for the video to come on.  I would study the lyrics and know them like the back of my hand. And this past week, I've been living in Bone Thugs and Harmony World, a surreal space in my world that has taken me once again, on an amazing journey. The experience was interesting and I'm blessed to have gotten to know them and their team.

We (Paragon Lux Entertainment) were able to work with Studio 92, based out of Hayward, Bone Thugs direct, and Krayzie Bone's Label - The Life Entertainment, their artists.  Thank you Trung Tran at Club Recess for hosting Friday night's party and for Duc and Mike Yee of Horizon for hosting Saturday Night.  

OUR VIDEO DROP for Bone Thugs' Official AFTER PARTY @HORIZON Ultra Lounge

Billy Billz and Sin Marlee

Duke Terrell

Paragon Lux with Marley's Treats

Krayzie Bone

Wish Bone

DONNIS - Signed with Atlantic, soarin' HIGH, and rockin' HIGHLANDS

I was fortunate to catch up and coming artist DONNIS at the Highlands last night. With that ATL swag and cool, down to earth personality, he graced the stage with his presence as the ladies loved him.

www.donnismusic.com/
TWITTER: DONNISXDONNIS

Livin' the Dream - BIG Boi in LA

Last week's party at Atmosphere was surreal. Running, managing, networking, and throwing events are my forte. And I'm so blessed to have had the opportunity to be apart of Big's birthday in the Bay. Working with Paragon Lux Entertainment is the beginning of a beautiful thing. And the next event will be even better, now that I'm prepared and have knowledge of how things can be. Anything is possible. I believe it.

So I come back to LA last Wednesday and extend my hospitality to Big Bio and his management directly, texting them to contact me. I didn't expect them to hit me because I knew they were busy, but I thought it wouldn't hurt to put myself out there and give it a try. Big calls me himself and the next thing you know I'm on my way to hang rockstar status, pulling up to a chaotic club in Hollywood, walking past the red carpet to watch USHER perform his OMG, while sitting next to Adam Lambert. I DIE. I treasured the moment and felt such fulfillment, I realized that I've been working so hard all my life for a moment like this. I was able to share it all with the beautiful Charrie Lanette.

...as the night continues, it gets better...Big asks me to dance in his show at Club Nokia the following night. I'm humbled and do what I need to do to put on a show with Big. Charrie does my makeup and is by my side the entire time. I'm blessed and so grateful for such an incredible experience. This is just the beginning to something so BIG and beautiful. I'm ready, focused, and am surrounding myself with such positive energy that will help me strive. Thank you to Ana and Tony of Paragon Lux for believing in me and trusting me to be apart of their team. Without them, I wouldn't have the connection to Big.

USHER - horrible shot, but it's still USHER

Bryan Barber gettin' footage of Big

Big Boi's Manager  Lo

Sound Check @Club Nokia

DJ SWIFF 

Jeremiah Alexis interviewin' Big

Big Boi's Officially Birthday Extravaganza @Atmosphere, SF 2/8/11

I have been working, promoting, and managing events for almost 10 years.  I've learned and mastered the ropes from the best of the industry in the Bay Area.  I belong. I feel myself. And I love every second of it and its craziness.  I've been given to opportunity to be apart of such an amazing company, Paragon Lux Entertainment, owned by Tony Williams (from ATL) and Ana Leano-Williams (SF).  They flew me to SF to show me what they're about and I'm 110% convinced that it's where I need to be in my career.  I had the pleasure to help them throw Outkast's BIG BOI's birthday Extravaganza at Atmosphere.  From tasting the cupcakes, to club networking in the BAY, to getting the cake and writing 'Happy Birthday Big', to situating BIG's ice sculpture, to presenting his special 'medicinal' treats, to running around, and making sure the event is successful - I was ALL over it, in it, on top of it, under it - ALL up in it. And BIG loved the event. It was definitely a highlight in my career.

ICE Sculpture - I had no idea you pour your shots into this

Talking with BIG 

Paragon Lux Entertainment - Ana Leano-Williams and Tony Williams

Marley's Treats - Responsible for BIG's delicious cupcakes

Cheesecake Factory Failed to write BIG's birthday wishes on his FRUIT Cheesecake so I gave it a shot

After Party - Postin' at the W, SF 

Takin' elevator with DJ SWIFF

AMERICAN IDOL

I auditioned for American Idol last August and it was quite an entertaining experience. My 2 seconds of fame was on TV last week and apparently, I was shimmying for the camera :)

December 30, 2010

I've neglected my blog and writing about my life experiences.  The end of 2010 was a very difficult time for me.  I had to find it in myself to be strong and get through one of the hardest times of my life.  Specific experiences in the past two months have helped me get to where I am today...

...and it starts 12/30/10 - The launch of Emeness Groupe, Mj and my's event management company and my 27th birthday extravaganza...

Angelique, Annie, Me, MJ

Fred